My unwashed thoughts.
Straight from the soul.
Not nessasarily based on reality.
fear,
panic,
nausea,
My mind keeps freezing up on me.
ctrl-alt-delete
keep going, inch by inch
reboot.............
over and over again.
I am afraid that at some point I will not restart.
It took me years to fully integrate into 'reality'
and I feel it slipping away..........
panic,
nausea,
My mind keeps freezing up on me.
ctrl-alt-delete
keep going, inch by inch
reboot.............
over and over again.
I am afraid that at some point I will not restart.
It took me years to fully integrate into 'reality'
and I feel it slipping away..........
Sitting out front of a house,
My first stop of the day,
Waiting....
The sense of time ticking away,
overwhelms me,
How many seconds do I have?
How many wasted moments left to me?
I feel small,
insignificant,
a failure at this game of life,
Too much trauma,
Too much pain,
Too many bad choices,
What God wants....
...................God gets
My first stop of the day,
Waiting....
The sense of time ticking away,
overwhelms me,
How many seconds do I have?
How many wasted moments left to me?
I feel small,
insignificant,
a failure at this game of life,
Too much trauma,
Too much pain,
Too many bad choices,
What God wants....
...................God gets
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